Rainy Thursday with John Donne

Well, I'm cooling a little bit down but I'm still pretty convinced that I don't need to see my father again in a very long time. If ever. What an awful human being. I don't want this to fester in me and end up bitter like him. I am incredibly unimpressed.

I am really busy. Super busy. A super hero busy. Maybe not that much, but I'm pulling quite a few hours at work and school is *intense*. I forgot how hard spring semesters hit you and I feel a little overwhelmed. I have a lot to do this weekend. My goal tonight is to write my Lit paper, but I think that's over ambitious. I'm going to do my best. I have a working outline, but we'll see how that goes. The professor seems like she could be kinda hard. I also have four books on Brazil and Brasilia waiting for me to crack them. I am scared and I need to do well this semester.

If I get the time off...only about two more weeks until I see Mattison! I feel less lonely this year, maybe because I'm busier or just more used to it. It's early yet.

I got to see Brandie today and that was awesome. It was a nice break between class and dealing with the kids (who were being little shits today).

I was talking to Bran and Jen about this and ruminating on my thoughts on gastric bypass. A relative of mine, my age and very overweight (almost twice my weight), recently had this done and I'm not sure how I feel about it. I get the feeling that she never really tried to lose the weight. I know she tried, but according to my grandparents she was still eating a lot of fast food and drinking two to five sodas (regular, not diet) a day. She also quit hockey and has since been rather inactive. I mean genetics has a part in it I'm sure, but I mean I couldn't maintain my weight by eating lots of fast food and soda. I rarely have soda or fast food and I run between fifteen and twenty miles a week. I watch my diet and exercise. I don't know. It feels a little like cheating to me, but whatever makes you happy I guess? Still haven't turned in a verdict.

Okay, getting going on Donne before going birthday present shopping with the fab Jendavis.